May Day Eve
September 6, 2005It’s 11:07 - I should be asleep - but I wanted to read something so I consulted my Lit course outline, saw May Day Eve and browsed the net for some online copies. And then I read through, and then done — very nice, very Filipino, very beautiful story…Similar to Nicholas Sparks’ The Notebook, because even though they were past teenage and adulthood, they were still in love with each other -madly in love- denying it a bit, but deep inside they were needing each other, the memories of the past would make them weep. Wow. I was deeply carried away by how Nick Joaquin designed the story. It was simple yet the words make it really really romantic…between the lines you could read real love. The scenes were so dramatic and almost genuine, your imaginations could capture them easily. I was touched with how the bowed old man sobbed so bitterly at the window; the tears streaming down his cheeks and with the wind in his hair and one hand pressed to his mouth..he was crying for his woman, grieving. Do you imagine how it must feel being so loved, that memories could make him tear, make him long for you - back again ?..I wish I will be loved that way too…
7/20/05 8:32am
stress week
stress week
Last night I creeped through my bed at 2:30 am. Although I am used to sleeping past the sleeping hour, last night, or yesterday morning rather, it felt like I’m a novice and unused to it. My head was throbbing with pain, and my eyes were drooping too much… As I was waiting for the computer to shut down (because I never try to just shut it inapproriately - yeah, prevention is better than cure, because to cure will mean cash - ), it felt like eternity! I was so tempted to just shut it off through the switch. I was just really sleepy, the thought of having sweet dreams was niggling on me…But for one thing, I was done with my Literature essay. I did so in one sitting (oh yes) - I do not know if it is a good article, all I know’s that it was my best. Anyways, when I woke up this morning, wow..the world was indeed ’round — turning ’round me…My brain seemed to have left it’s place and vacated to another site (Mars), as if signaling a move of surrender (Tama na!)..my skull felt too light it was making me real dizzy and drowsy. My eyes, well you know what happens to one’s eye when she works in the night like an owl—they get black and baggy..I looked awful in the mirror, I had to put up something to conceal it. I do not want people thinking that I am like an “aswang”. If possible, those secrets should be just mine. (hihihi!) And once I look into the mirror and see a stressed face, I become more stressed out!
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The good thing about today is that we were dismissed early - with my last 2 subjects, the only two I have to attend to in the afternoon. phew!! I do not know whether it was really obvious but according to our Philo teacher we looked restless that after the exam we were free to go.. Bless him!
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Now I have to think of a business org for CS311..I am never business oriented, let alone business minded. I am not a people person. I can interact with them, yes, but to sit together through coffee and talk business? Yikes, no thanks.
But..what can I do? I am not the one in charge now. Like a take-it-or-leave-it fashion. No escape. I really have to get used to it.
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I need to solve for math - probability and stat - I never thought a teacher could ever have such a confidence toward his students! Imagine, he just sits there, and reads whatever the book says. It is like an audio version of a book. Like listening to a Harry Potter story on tape. I do not know if he’s really true in believing in us that way, looking up with regard (kuno) at our presupposed “capabilities,” or if he is just plain lazy.
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OK now, done with blogging - get back to work.
7/19/05 - 6:27pm
