who says I’m evil?

My parents feel indifferent with me lately, because clearly, I have had been doing nothing but face the computer (for academic reasons, of course) as well as uttering words such as defense, CS, paper, and other annoying scholastic tail tales.
Apparently, I have been giving more priority to my school work. I have been giving a low participation here at home. The only chore I do was to arrange my messy table whenever I have the chance to, or wash the dishes if it is my schedule to do it.

Looks like I do not exist. Well, partly, it is my fault, because I willed not to exist because my mind was left inside the campus grounds even if I was already home. Sometimes I do not even eat.

My parents didn’t care as well, or I think they didn’t. I know that they talk about my recent attitude sometimes at night. I wouldn’t be surprised if they would even despise me one of these days.

Or they are just plain insecure with my situation. Well, they do not know how hard my situation is. That is why I try so hard to understand them, with my barely almost 19-year old mind. I cannot blame them for feeling that way for me. Maybe they thought they had lost control over me, or that I am slowly drifting away from them.

Since it is Sem break this time, I cleaned the house, particularly the living room. I missed cleaning, mind you. What will all the computer routines. They are still indifferent, although I think the feeling eased a bit with me cleaning and finally giving some participations. I just wonder how “not cleaning” made me evil.

A lot of people regard one person good, but that person does not even know how to wash the damn dishes. She might not have even held a soft broom! But she is good because she does good things.

I am evil because I did not do a single chore, although I did so for my studies. Nobody in this home says I am good, because I failed to sweep the floors or apply a wax in them. All for academic reasons. And yes, I’ve been treated this way.

How pathetic.